Within Every Difficulty Lies Opportunity

Are you sure about that Al? I have been facing a lot of difficulty lately. Does this mean when my desk is cleared of all that “difficulty” I will find nothing but opportunity? Hope so.

Well I had a special paper elf come to my rescue yesterday and make a major dent in the piles of paper that have been making me nervous. Thanks paper elf. I’m gonna talk to the boss to see it I can get you promoted to Head Elf In Charge you do deserve it. Clearing the paper around me allowed to to focus on some very pressing issues.

Yesterday I handled all the difficult things I had waiting for me and then some. It took a lot of focus to remain calm and to keep that overwhelming feeling at bay. It wasn’t easy and I felt stressed at the end of the day. Its not easy to maintain a calm exterior when you are screaming on the inside. What’s worse is I didn’t feel a sense of accomplishment at the end of the day and I get no reward. My alter ego Bertha was trying to show her ass yesterday, but I kept her in check.

I went to the supermarket to buy what I needed for dinner and of course I wanted to buy everything I have no business smelling let alone eating. But I conquered it and bought only things that were on program. But I felt no sense of accomplishment. So here I am doing what’s right for me — staying on program and doing what’s right — remaining focused and calm at work — with no sense of accomplishment. I share a little secrete with you, I don’t want to face my work day today either. Mr. Einstein, tell me, oh please tell me there is opportunity waiting for me somewhere.

I have to admit what I am experiencing is rather new for me. I am not comforting myself with food. I am not using food to manage my uncomfortable feelings. It feels clumsy and stressful. I am managing to keep my irritable feelings to myself — no easy task — because all the small things irritate me –

Sidebar — What is worse than The Larry King Show — The Larry King Show being hosted by fucking Glenn Beck — OMG! This son of a bitch thinks he the voice of the everyday American. This freaking recovering alcoholic is so self righteous it is sickening. What’s worse this idiot gets paid to be stoopid! –

Well I am off to face another hectic day that I wish I could just avoid. But because Al Einstein assures me that underneath all that difficulty that lies ahead I am sure to find opportunity, I will just continue to hang in there.

Moving on:

The Positive: I am tackling most things that are before me despite the fact I am stress out.

Me First: I didn’t eat off program, because I thought of “me first”. Now if I was thinking about my alter ego Bertha Butt, oh it would have been on!

Didn’t Avoid: I didn’t avoid life yesterday as I really wanted to.

Post ya later